Dear Sunshine

Dear Sunshine,

On June 25th your aunt Karlee had surprise twin boys; Kyle Fly and Miles Trust.  They were 6 weeks early so they were very tiny and under a lot of stress.  They were both doing pretty good, but Kyle was barely hanging in there.  He passed away last night at 4:09am.  You woke up last night crying around the same time he passed and it made me wonder if maybe somehow you knew something was wrong.  Even though you only have 1 little boy cousin physically here, you will always have 2 little boy cousins.  I know that you won’t understand any of this until you are older but I thought I would still write it down so that you could one day look back and read about little Kyle and how he was a precious being too special for this world.  

This makes me appreciate every moment I have with you and makes me look back at how scary it was giving birth to you; having to be thrown into an emergency C-section, not being awake for your birth, hearing that you didn’t have a real first cry, seeing how extremely tiny you were.  I am so glad that you made your way through to the world little girl.  I just can’t imagine…